this video means more to me than pretty much any piece of art i have ever made. when i wrote phones in heaven, i wanted it to be directed at people who have lost a loved one suddenly to suicide. i honestly don’t know many friendship groups compiled of men especially, who haven’t lost someone they know to it. i lost a friend of mine years back and it’s plagued me ever since, so i wanted this song to comfort people who have felt and still feel that sort of grief. that type of grief that stays open. the questions… the what ifs, the could i have’s, maybe even the “should i join them?” type ones. it’s a mortifying feeling and so confusing. so, when my own dad, my hero, decided to take his own life in november, my life instantly felt like it was falling apart all over again, but in a far worse way. i wondered what i would do without him. how i’d continue on in life for such a long time knowing he wasn’t gonna be there to see any of it. all i wanted was a sign. just any sign that he’s fine. that’s what this song is about and what the video is about. thank you to my wonderful and supportive partner, lily for helping me set the scene with the initial location concept and the whole blind eye production team who made that idea come to life. this video is out now and so is the song, so please give it a watch and share it with people who need that extra bit of support in a tricky time. there is signs out there, you just have to be patient enough to wait for them. i can thankfully say i have had my own now. lastly, if you feel like you’re struggling please reach out to friends, family, anybody. we all want you here and love you so much. hope you enjoy the video.

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Lyrics:
I wish I didn’t delete those texts
They were the one thing that I had left
Cause maybe now I would miss you less
Maybe those conversations could fill the emptiness
Cause you’re so far away
I’m alone these days
Spending nights awake
Whenever I’m crying
I wanna be crying with laughter
Whenever it’s quiet
I wanna be drunk at the after
Sat at that bar again
Singing ‘Wonderwall’ again
I’m losing my conscience
Thinking that you’ll call
Like there’s phones in heaven
So many thoughts and words unsaid
But worrying won’t bring back my friend (oh)
Every morning comes with a bigger test (oh)
I’m always waking up from my dream I can’t accept (oh)
Now you’re so far away
I’m alone these days
Spending nights awake
Whenever I’m crying (oh)
I wanna be crying with laughter
Whenever it’s quiet (oh)
I wanna be drunk at the after
Sat at that bar again (ah)
Singing ‘Wonderwall’ again
I’m losing my conscience
Thinking that you’ll call
Like there’s phones in heaven
I miss you
Will you call me back
I miss you
Will you call me back
I miss you
Call me back
Call me back from your phone in heaven

Credits:
Director: Jack Lightfoot
Producer: Sam Nutt
Production Company: Blindeye Films
Production Manager: Emily Clifford
Director of Photography: Michael O’Connor
1st AC: Nacho Guzman
2nd AC: Niels Halle
Gaffer: Vini Curtis
Spark: Jorge Higgins
Spark: Dax Sharkey
Production Designer: Laure Little
Art Dept Assistant: Maia De Emmony
Hair & Make Up: Sarah Scott
Stylist: Anna Sweasey
Production Assistant: Rachel Akiboye
Runner: George Goodman
Edit: Louis Catlett
Grade: Dan Moran
Creative: Mitchell Peryer, Jack Morgan, Lily Knott
Commissioners: Kris Declan, Josh Mitchell

CAST
Denial : Tate Furlonge-Walker
Anger: Paul Fairlie
Bargaining: Valieria Riabikina
Depression: Reimi Kobayashi
Acceptance: Karta Kaur

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